Dying and Rising

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“Throw yourself into the spiritual fire of divine love…until there is nothing left but the pure truth of yourself.” – Ilia Delio


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Psalm 105:4

Look to God for strength; seek to serve God constantly.


At one time, my life was somewhat miserable.

You wouldn’t have known it to look at me since I had a high profile job as a radio news anchor at a very successful station.

But despite serving a useful purpose and being well-respected and known, I felt empty inside.

There was a huge void.

Thomas Merton might say that my ego had constructed a false self.

The false self isn’t bad.

It’s just not your true self.

Living as your false self would never satisfy your soul.

But for the ego to relinquish control, it might take a major disorienting dilemma.

When it seemed I could do nothing to alter my course, I cried out to God for help.

That’s when I heard a voice in my heart telling me to get my guitar, a guitar I hadn’t touched in a decade or played much since I was a kid.

What a crazy idea!

And yet, it felt so real and hopeful that that’s exactly what I did.

I slowly started writing songs and began to consciously seek God in all things.

I was drawn ever so slowly to a new path that eventually led me to a life in ministry: youth ministry, social justice, jail ministry, music ministry, and chaplaincy.

Music was the frequency in which I was able to open a channel to the Divine.

Words and melodies came and I channeled them through the imperfect vessel of my mind and body.

The songs have been used to serve others.

And in serving others, of course, I am also serving God.

Do I still struggle with ego and self-centered desires?

Yes, of course, every day.

But the God of love continuously forgives me and redirects me.

Jesus said you must lose your life to find your life (Matthew 16:25).

Letting go of the ego-generated life allows for your true life to rise out of your inner depths.

It’s the life your soul came here to live.

As Jesus also said, “What profit is there for one to gain the whole world and forfeit his life?” (Mark 8:36)

Dying and rising is the process that leads to lifeevery time.


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Remember: God loves you!

About billtonnis

Child of God, Pastoral Minister, Chaplain, Music Minister, Jail Minister, singer-songwriter, author, activist, former radio news anchor, imperfect follower of Jesus inspired by God's unconditional love, proud uncle... what else is there?
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